season of L.O.V.E

Crazy Wongfu Fan

2007-09-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

I'm going crazy waiting for the private screening to happen. I can't concentrate on what I'm supposed to do today (storyboarding, the next asian film archive screening posters, producing work).

AH!! I'm so excited. and I'm such a crazy fan that i made a poster for later. I'm crazy.

2007-09-10T11:43:00.000+08:00

I've moved again..

www.shi-chi-sq.blogspot.com

5 Minute Bus-ride

2007-05-22T19:32:00.000+08:00

i'm glad i squeezed up the bus today.

walk the stairs, dont take the lift, life a healthy happy life. be nice to people, it'll make your day happier! board the bus slowly, don't worry, i'll wait for you. careful there ladies, i'm going to close the door.

a 5 min bus trip, but one that brighten the whole day.

everytime we are at a stop, bus uncle will say nice things to everyone. "may you will 4D tomorrow! become a rich man! and you wont be here to take the bus." from his voice you could hear the smile. "anyone getting down? careful, i'm opening the door!"

maybe i've boarded the bus with a spell of courtesy. even though the bus was overly loaded, it didnt feel stuffy and unpleasant. little funny things that the uncle said made passengers smile at each other, start a friendly conversation about the bus uncle, move in automatically to fill the bus with more people.

tvmobile could have cured boredom on the bus, but could not have brightened my day like the uncle.

thank you uncle.
thank you lord.
for all the wonderful things in the world.

sorry..

2007-04-27T11:04:00.000+08:00

sorry for neglecting my friends..
sorry for hiding in school..
sorry for all the unreplied sms and phone calls..
sorry for the always dead handphone..

sorry for not posting till now..

forgive me!
i'm back and alive in the world again :)

when you finish your exams pls! give me a call.. and scold me for all the bad things i am.. then i can make up to you with a day out together or something.

god bless to all those having exams..
god bless to all those rushing projects.

loves~

YAY.

2007-03-12T13:13:00.000+08:00

i'm shooting my short narrative scene in 2 weeks time.
24th.
this time i have a crew. YAY.

i'm not going to die. YAY.

Sucidal Attempt No. 1

2007-03-09T13:08:00.000+08:00

I am going to fall apart if i cant find my actor..

if i lose any other important things..
and shit i cant find my hard-drive cable!

and my laptop's down
and i lost a box of photopaper costing me 65bucks.

i'm attempting sucide soon..
AHH

SAVE ME.. Somebody~~

Star-crossed lovers

2007-03-05T02:31:00.000+08:00

Star-crossed lovers quit West Bank
By Matthew Price BBC News, Jerusalem

The couple married three years ago after meeting in JerusalemShe is a 26-year-old Jewish Israeli. Her name is Jasmine Avissar. He is a 27-year-old Palestinian Muslim, Osama Zaatar.

Jasmine and Osama's is a love story, and it tells you so much about the Israeli-Palestinian conflict.

They met when they worked at the same place in Jerusalem, and three years ago they got married. First they tried to live in Israel, but the Israeli authorities would not allow Osama to join his wife there. Then they tried living in the occupied West Bank, but some Palestinians made life difficult for them.

Now they've given up and are moving to Europe.

Strangers

"We ran out of choices of finding any solution to live in either Israel or Palestine," says Jasmine as she packs her bags.

"We were naive and thought we could win this fight but we can't. So we have to go abroad and start a new life."

Jasmine

We were naive and thought we could win this fight but we can't

Osama

The moment I decided not to be part of the mainstream I was told that I was not a part of my country anymore Jasmine already has permission to go. Osama hopes to follow her soon.

We go up onto the roof of their village home. The sunlight is so harsh you have to squint to look at the view. Stone walls hold earth terraces onto the hillsides, olive trees hundreds of years old are dotted across the landscape.

"I feel like a stranger here," says Osama. "Even in my homeland. This place is a holy land, but they're killing each other. It's like it's already a lost cause."

"Here there's no chance. I just want to start again."

Under investigation

They are an almost unique couple.

Neither Israeli nor Palestinian society has accepted their marriage.

On Jasmine's Israeli passport, it still says her marital status is "under investigation".

"Our marriage was a human thing. We just fell in love," says Jasmine. "The society around us is making it political."

"I feel like a refugee. The moment I decided not to be part of the mainstream I was told that I was not a part of my country anymore."

A taxi turns up, and Osama helps Jasmine with her bags.

The drive takes them through occupied Palestinian lands. They pass a tall grey Israeli army watchtower. They drive through army checkpoints.

Israel has been in control here for almost 40 years.

Given up

"Even here in Osama's homeland I am superior as an Israeli," says Jasmine, as she looks out the window.

"It's easier for me to move around. The soldiers let me through checkpoints. They don't arrest me like they might arrest Osama."

A final embrace at the Israeli checkpoint Osama is banned from crossingJasmine has given up on her own country.

"Jewish people were abused for thousands of years, but my nation has switched from being victims to being abusers.

"That's hard for me to acknowledge. The Jewish people are occupiers now, and we are racist."

The car arrives at a final checkpoint.

We stand next to it, and Osama tells me why he has also given up on his own people.
"There were threats. People said if I brought my wife here we'd be in danger. Even my friends said that. They say I am a traitor."

"It makes me wonder whether I want to be a Palestinian any more. Some see me as some sort of Israeli envoy. It's a shit feeling."

Seeking safety

They turn and walk the short distance to the checkpoint that leads out of the West Bank and into Israel.

They put down their bags, and hug one another. There's a short kiss.

I ask Osama what he hopes for from his new life.

"I want to be able to walk in the street and not be stopped by the Israeli army or police. I want to feel safe. I have never felt that."

Jasmine smiles. "I just want to be a normal couple, with normal problems about rent, and money. I don't want to have these huge gigantic problems interfering in our marriage."

Even now though they are not quite free.

Osama cannot go through the checkpoint with Jasmine. They don't know when he will be able to join her in Europe.

They are still a couple caught in the middle of the Israeli Palestinian conflict.

Listening to Hymn

2007-03-05T02:23:00.000+08:00

listening to hymns..

dear god.. are you still my dear god? or have i stood pondering in the snow for too long? will i find my peace of mind.. to be or not to be..

god bless my friends and family.

Actors Needed

2007-02-28T19:07:00.000+08:00

i need actors!! best with a dance partner.

i'm desperate. and its a paid job.

contact me!! refer your friends!! fush0003@ntu.edu.sg

5am in the morning

2007-02-13T05:34:00.000+08:00

5am in the morning..
and i've just finished writing this stupid paragraph about myself.

From the top a black dot, from the side a lanky figure, from the bottom two size seven feet, add that up and you get me. The measuring tape says I am a 173 centimeters. The weighing machine says I am 60 kilograms. The only brother I have says I’m a tall pear with broad shoulders. I was born long, and then I grew tall, so I play basketball. Love that sports, always under the sun, but I never get tanned. Fair is my skin, black is my hair, a typical Chinese you could say. Straight and starring a fringe, my hair has always been; only the length varies with the weather. Since it’s hot these days, my hair is short. Though I love the thrill from roller coaster rides and the vertical drops, never had I been adventurous enough to dye my hair another shade. With a chatterbox mouth and an innate love for change, my life is full of color. Raising my high cheekbones, bending my mouth into the letter U, showing my teeth, I smile cherishing this gift from my parents and god. After all I have said, and all you have heard, if you see me in the crowd, you will know, that is me.

i don't want to face the mess on my bed.
i don't want to hang the laundry up.
i don't want to think about the amount of work due on valentine's day.
i don't want to believe the mess i am in.

popcap.com accompanying me through the night.
when reality comes you can face it..
or run away!!

For my girls

2007-01-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

those men who are not worth it..
don't deserve to hurt my girls..

"When someone hurts you, cry a river, Build a bridge and get over it!". ~Richard Middleton

As Requested

2007-01-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

雙魚座爸爸給魚魚講小時候經常挨餓的事。聽完後，魚魚兩眼含淚，十分同情地問："哦，爸爸，你是因為沒飯吃才來我們家的嗎？"
（富含豐富同情心、不分情況對象的雙魚）

白羊座媽媽經常叮囑羊羊："穿裙子時不可以蕩秋千﹔不然，會被小男生看到里面的小內褲哦！"有一天，羊羊高興地對媽媽說："今天我和小明比賽蕩秋千，我贏了！"媽媽生氣地說："不是告訴過你嗎？穿裙子時不要蕩秋千！"羊羊驕傲地說："可是我好聰明哦！我把里面的小內褲脫掉了，這樣他就看不到我的小內褲了！"
（勇敢直率、敢做敢為的白羊）

金牛座賣瓜小販："快來吃西瓜，不甜不要錢！"饑渴的牛牛："哇！太好了，老板，來個不甜的！"
（持家、想出軌又顧全自己的金牛）

雙子座媽媽叫雙雙起床："快點起來！公雞都叫好幾遍了！"雙雙說："公雞叫和我有什麼關系？我又不是母雞！"
（自我意識強烈、自行思維的雙子）

巨蟹座公車上，蟹蟹說："今晚我要和媽媽睡！"媽媽問道："你將來娶了媳婦也和媽媽睡阿？"蟹蟹不假思索："嗯！"媽媽又問："那你媳婦怎麼辦？"蟹蟹想了半天，說："好辦，讓她跟爸爸睡！"媽媽："！＠＃＄％︿＆＊（……—"再看爸爸，已經熱淚盈眶啦！
（戀母情結、依戀的巨蟹）

獅子座獅獅去參加奶奶的壽宴。到了吃壽包的時候，獅獅問："我們為什麼要吃這種像屁股的壽包？"眾人聽了臉色大變。接著獅獅撥開壽包，看看里面的豆沙，說："奶奶，快看！里面還有大便！"眾人暈的暈，吐的吐。
（以自我感受、不怕旁人眼光的驕傲的獅子）

處女座處處對肚臍很好奇，就問爸爸。爸爸把臍帶連著胎兒與母體的道理簡單地講了一下，說："嬰兒離開母體之後，醫生把臍帶減斷，並打了一個結，後來就成了肚臍。"處處："那醫生為什麼不打個蝴蝶結？"
（好奇心強又追求完美的處女）

天秤座父親對天天說："今天不要上學了，昨晚．．．你媽給你生了兩個弟弟。你給老師說一下就行了。"天天卻回答："爸爸，我只說生了一個﹔另一個，我想留著下星期不想上時再說！"
（聰明、權衡利弊的天平）

天蠍座蠍蠍剛睡著，就叫蚊子叮了一口。他起來趕蚊子，卻怎麼也趕不出去。沒法，便指著蚊子說："好吧，你不出去我出去！"邊說邊出了房間，把門使勁關嚴得意地說："哼！我今晚不進屋，非把你餓死不可！"
（搞不懂、不按常理出牌的天蠍）

射手座射射："爸爸，為什麼你有那麼多白頭發？"爸爸："因為你不乖，所以爸爸有好多白頭發阿。"射射：……（疑惑中）射射："那為什麼爺爺全部都是白頭發？"爸爸：！＠＃＄％︿＆＊（……
（喜歡思考的射手）

摩羯座一天，羯羯跟媽媽上街﹔走在路上，突然下起雨來。媽媽拉過羯羯的小手，說："下雨了，快往前跑阿！"羯羯慢條斯理地問："那前面就不下雨嘍！？"
（明白現實懶得改變的摩羯）

水瓶座瓶瓶問媽媽："問什麼稱蔣先生為『先人』？"媽媽說："因為'先人'是對死去的人的稱呼。"瓶瓶說："那去世的奶奶是不是要叫『鮮奶』？"
（天生的另類、腦筋思考永遠和常人不一樣的水瓶）

A Little Laugh and a Birthday Wish

2007-01-23T10:16:00.000+08:00

天秤座父親對天天說："今天不要上學了，昨晚．．．
你媽給你生了兩個弟弟。你給老師說一下就行了。"
天天卻回答："爸爸，我只說生了一個﹔另一個，我想留著下星期不想上時再說！"
（聰明、權衡利弊的天平）

and for the birthday girl..

水瓶座瓶瓶問媽媽："問什麼稱蔣先生為『先人』？"
媽媽說："因為'先人'是對死去的人的稱呼。"
瓶瓶說："那去世的奶奶是不是要叫『鮮奶』？"
（天生的另類、腦筋思考永遠和常人不一樣的水瓶）

happy birthday jo. i meant.. birthday WOMAN. ms 21.

International Slow Down Week

2007-01-17T04:42:00.000+08:00

another from kera smith. i really shd add her into my links..

exercises for international slow down week:

slow down week is here.

1. walk as slowly as you possibly can for at least 10 minutes.

2. sit in a busy place and do not move for 10 minutes.

3. give yourself permission to not answer the phone all week.

4. take half an hour to peel and eat an orange.

5. have a conversation with a squirrel.

6. watch ice melting.

7. leave secret notes in trees.

8. write in a cafe for several hours.

9. conduct your own japanese tea ceremony.

10. grind ink to draw with, write in your journal using brush and ink.

11. sew something by hand.

12. take photos on your way to work.

Kukup 2007

2007-01-15T20:03:00.000+08:00

the 1st trip overseas in the year 2007.. kukup, malaysia.. just north of JB.
pictures say a thousand words..

on the way there with the admers..

we stayed in the uniquely kukup "chalet"..

while the guys were asleep.. girls out at the jetty..

out to sea we go!

kelong marine life

and much more.. all i spent for those 2 wonderful days was 50rm. yep. believe it.

merry christmas

2006-12-25T11:24:00.000+08:00

merry christmas everyone!

hope you had a merry time with your loved ones. :)

Missing the Sharks

2006-12-10T00:07:00.000+08:00

it seems like i'm rotting on my bed. i would really give anything to do something useful this holidays. everyones working and out. any part time work? look for me. anything. really. i'm really bored at home. i even resorted to packing my room for a whole 3 days then packing my cousins'. going to the library alone.

maybe i dont hate the editing lab and the crazy hours that much.

i want back my sharks.

the fish is getting fat and unfresh.

and totally not confident of anything anymore if i keep staring at the computer screen reading none-existance updates. doing things that i do only to please my parents and waste my time.. like go genting, when i'm too old for the themepark and too young for the casino, for 4 days. then christmas is here and the holidays over.

somehow this holidays feels like a drag. can school start again please?
so i dont feel like a old unwanted piece of rag.

ireallyhatebeingalone.
soon i'll be a dead fish. cos i'm gonna jump out of the tank of still water soon.

Smith's Artist Survival Kit

2006-12-06T13:57:00.000+08:00

"For the really bad days,
for the days when you want to quit,
when you feel like everything you do is shit,
when you feel your self-esteem plummet,
when you decide that you would rather wait tables for a living,
when you start to think you will never make a living making art,
when you are working on something and feel like you hate it more than you've ever hated anything in your life,
when someone makes an offhand remark about your work and afterwards you feel dejected,
when you wish you had gone to school for accounting,
when you start to believe that maybe your family was right,
when you want to lie in bed for a month and eat chips. "
- kera smith

well those days are over (not coming yet soon) and well.. i'm lying in bed slacking for a month.

early xmas present for all those who believe they will have slackofsleep&depression&wanttogiveup syndrome.. that picture is a link to your present~ even if you're not an artist.

My mom and the garbage man

2006-12-06T12:35:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHH... AHH!

i'm having an outrage here. my mom's collaborating with garbage man. to throw EVERYTHING away. do you have a mum like that too? she's crazy! and i'm mad! i'm was telling.. then i was complaining.. then i was yelling. then my dad yells about my damn it freaking hell rudness. FREAK! just get out of my room!

other kids without toys and books can have mine. NOT the garbage man. I'm giving away! not throwing! freak! this things cost money and are in good condition! what the freaking hell is wrong with sharing?? and if you agree with my mum, let me just ask this. do you want to live on top of a NEW hill in singapore? or get haze from garbage-forest fire?! FREAK!

and all those cloths that my mum bought for HERSELF and for ME, when i was not ard. that is in perfect condition like those you can get in the 2nd hand shops that those freaking rich taitai wear once and throw away. but we are NOT freaking rich! so whats wrong with me trying to sell those that she has NEVER worn and are so freaking nice away? i could sell like 1 out of those 10 branded goods i picked out and easily get 20 bucks! and she's so freaking HAPPY about the 40 dollars from the 3 BIG bags of cloths sold that we at least spent a thousand bucks for them! just think. 50 shirts times 20 dollars thats a freaking 1000! HELL! and she's CHALLENGING me to get TOMMY HILFIGER sold! FREAK!

if i'm really studying architecture, i'll build a house, beside a 5 dollar market, with lots of holes -and to collect garbage and dust, and install a HUGE garbage bin in the house that generates 50cents everytime its full, JUST. FOR. MY MUM.

PISSED.
怒りの絶叫.

the fish is still alive

2006-12-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

just to inform you that the fish (me, not my bro) is still alive.

eaten a few sharks.
rotting on the super single sized bed at HOME.
playing SIMS 2.
reading every single thing available (expect for the newspapers).
growing out of the L-SIZED and the XL. (not joking.. i changed 4 shorts today just because i cant freaking fit into them.)
intending to slim down.
absolutely willing to be asked out for a ride, cycle, swim, jog, basketball, volleyball, getting sweaty.

and this xmas is coming! some baking needs to be done. :)

theres a few sharks in my life now

2006-11-10T11:20:00.000+08:00

How Japanese Fish Stay Fresh:

To keep the fish tasting fresh, the Japanese fishing companies still put the fish in the tanks. But now they add a small shark to each tank. The shark eats a few fish, but most of the fish arrive in a very lively state. The fish are challenged.

Have you realized that some of us are also living in a pond but most of the time tired & dull, so we need a Shark in our life to keep us awake and moving? Basically in our lives Sharks are new challenges to keep us active and lively.....

good night everyone.. (time now's 1114am)

btw. anyone interested in notre dame de paris?? i REALLY wanna watch. there's still student tickets (Special Concession Ticket for student only S$47.60 + S$2). its till 17th! do contact me! pls!!

0353hrs

2006-11-09T03:59:00.000+08:00

0353.. its a time when you are suppose to be in deep sleep dreaming of flying off to paradise.
yet i'm here in the lab taking a break from cutting footages and listening to the same dialogue ten times over to get the best cut. looking at things at 1/24 sec..

being alone in the lab is so cold.. and cold.. lucky me.
i see my brother awake on msn!
heehhee..

social interaction.. gonna fill that bar up.
then to "do assignment".

crashing gates

2006-11-07T02:21:00.000+08:00

so technology had to play a trick on me today.. okay. not a trick. its punishment. for overworking my harddrive and the mac in school and my own lappie.

my freaking new 100gig seagate harddrive, that claimed to be the best harddrive manufacturer, with 500g ( i dont believe) pressure resistance, crashed today. i mean this morning at 2am. i have no idea what i have backed up in the mac in school. in my lappie and my thumbdrive. such luck that i save everything anywhere and everywhere.

and assignments due today. wednesday. next week. not assignments. the word demeans them.. semester projects that them.

ADMers Are Dying Mortals.

life and school

2006-11-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

eeks!
i'm missing a studio class now.. (in adm if you miss more than 3 you are a goner. your A will turn B) missed in to finish its assignment. there's half an hour more to the 3 hr class. so i'm waiting for that half hour to past so that i can go back to school to do other studio assignments.

suddenly remembered how i used to say i'll never talk about school, and how we shouldnt talk about it on our blogs. but that was before adm and before my life was equivalent to my school work..

bah.. back to work..

4pm in the morning

2006-11-03T02:29:00.001+08:00

i've messed up my a.m. and p.m.

morning and night. working into the nights. taking naps in the morning and afternoon.
really messed up.

i should sleep. but i havent finished my work and i'm going crazy.
this time i didnt procrastinate. it was the freaking prof. hate baldwin..

2006-11-03T02:29:00.000+08:00

point. update

2006-11-01T03:47:00.001+08:00

exam mugging period.

alike everyone's reducing their lectures and tutorials to point form notes. heres mine, my update, in point form.

i'm officially that dangerous driver on the roads with licence.
my birthday's over.
got a watch from my darling. kino vouchers from hall peeps. dinner with family and dear.
thank you to all for the well wishes.
thanks to all, especially CG, hui, bro, dear, family, who helped in the filming.
i havent gone home in a long time. stuck in school doing work.
cause of suffering, procrastination which i did just and yesterday.
deadlines all in this month.
screening of films on 25 nov in my school.
but dont come cos my film sucks.
staring at the mountain beyond and tripping over the rocks in front.
i'm officially fat and few kgs (less than 5) from being overweight.
beng calls me the fat one, dear says i'm pregnant.
i snack with maggie mee, instant stuff, chocolates, biscuit, canned food, tit-bits. on top of the 3 meals.
i'm going to get over and done with this month. i believe.
got myself a crazy alarm clock. but i still oversleep.
after exams i've got plans for climbing (hui?) with a few of my schoolmates.
going shanghai (if theres time) with family
doing a film with huis.
doing a film with class.
still think i suck at what i do. practice practice practice.
joined hall basketball team.
going to take tons of photos on film. not digital.
getting my hair permed and paided 50 the day before my exam.
need to print script tmr.

thats about it.

all the best to everyone. dont stress out and die before me! lol..

need a van urgently

2006-10-10T04:29:00.000+08:00

NEED A VAN!! URGENTLY!!
for this coming weekend.

just went through all my shots and found out that i'm really a blur and clumsy person. missed out and forgot to take some shots last week. no wonder i ended earlier than expected. this wednesday night i'll be filming too.

sunday i'll have to transport all my props back into that room.. into that corner. shit. really. i didnt plan. didnt hire crew or help and i have no van.

but at least i have my actress.. and i'm calling for help from the film students. and van from EVERYONE! and lucky i have sunday to shoot.

these few posts are gonna be just me rambling.. i need to destress.. from film. cant be the screenplay, producer, director, assistant director, gaffer, props master, set designer, camera man, all at the same time.. its crazy. and i mean it.

the night after

2006-10-09T04:26:00.000+08:00

it was disgusting. shoting with a one man crew with an inexperienced director..
whatever i shot the first day i retook on the second. whatever i shot with myself as the cameraman, i have to reshoot very soon. but i really have to say.

BIG THANK THANK YOU HUI!
my one and only loyal actress cum crew. and danny for saving me on the second.

and also to my bro.. my family and michael who came to help 1st day. and everyone who cheered me on, and helped me out, when i nearly gave up. but its not over yet.

a few more retakes and scenes. then the editing table. :) yes. say i can do it.

i'm not giving up yet.

"she struggling very hard.. thats why shes a good student.."

That LPF dream

2006-09-30T23:06:00.000+08:00

been at wongfu's again.

yea, they're still my idol.

though everytime i go there, i feel like a failure. then i feel motivated. see how they made it in 4 yrs? from nothing (like me) to now(film tour)?

i havent given up on that LPF dream. even though we didnt make the music video in the end (due to the clash in freetime and lack in actors). still have the file with the script and storyboard for accidentally in love, just waiting for the time to come. i'm still faithfully writing a script for future productions, redrafting them over and over. wonder if the rest have given up, cos i seem to be the only enthusiast right now. (cos i'm a film student bah.)

doing one on singles. (desperately single) inspired by yellow fever and the XXXXX club. its about how its okay to be single. but its not a short just for singles, it for everyone. its about love and relationship and how bgr is just another part in our life. for anyone with thoughts and questions about love, or simply wanting to smile and laugh. a short comedical social commentary.

i've still got a lot to learn. i know it.

hope the LPF dream is still alive. or was it just a dream?

my fellow film students and the future filmmakers.. wanna share something.. sad.. i found.

YEAR
CINEMA ATTENDANCES
1995
18,128,000
1996
17,258,000
1997
17,347,000
1998
16,397,000
1999
14,773,700
2000
13,441,000
2001
13,563,000
2002
14,268,000
2003
14,644,000
2004
15,877,000
2005
14,800,000

Source: Singapore Department of Statistics

lets change this okay? i dont wanna conform to what they say. i mean. ADM. is the golden opportunity.

"when a golden opportunity comes your way, you dont wanna admit it you chose to believe that you're just not that lucky.." from a moment with you

scared and anxious

2006-09-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

i'm telling you i'm scared and anxious.

(not about my driving test this monday.. the examiner shd be scared, not me.)

scared and anxious about my upcoming filming. all the planning, and imagination is going to fall in place (or out of place) the next weekend. my crew and actress, please dont back out on me. really need you. and all the moral support i can get.

i just keep imagining that everything will fall apart. me. my crew. my set. my film. so my dear friends, please help me by a simple comment on my film and a yes i would like to help you out in someway. dont wanna falter first step down the path. trying to get over my nerves, pms, my blurness and all to make this work. so please please please..

first it was a dream, then it was a pile of mess to clear, now its taking shape. all that i can think of dreaming, awake is film film film. make or break. make or break.

need a van and a driver.
need a few movers (i dont mind women power)
need a mr/mrs checklist
need a lighting person
need a welfare officer (jo dont go running)
need a camera man
need 2 male actors for 2 short scenes.
(will take you less than half the day, no facial expressions. super easy.)

7th and 8th.

i have yet to dress my character. need a gown, red or white or silver.. (kat?).
BAH! enough. i need to stop thinking of these.

only 6 more days. i'm so unprepared. scared and anxious.. really scared.

save me lord. watch over me and dont let me falter.

just wanna say: hui, love you and thanks for being there all the time. :) you're my gift from heaven.

她. My experimental film.

2006-09-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

An experimental art film.
See if you get whats going on. everything happens in one room. through the course of zooming out from the main character's, ah juan, face to the whole room. we see her present and past. do read through and give me your frank comments.
(below is a list of whats gonna happen or what you'll see in sequence in the film)

她.

1. Hand browses cd rack and picks out a cd. (titles)

2. Little girl in school uniform humming and playing in a room.

3. A row of drawings line on the wall.

4. Little girl carries her school bag, pins up a new drawing with her name(zhen) on it and leaves the room.

5. Hand swaying with the CD as she walks

6. Ah juan walks into the same room and approachs the cd player and plays the cd.

7. She starts to put makeup. Traces her hand to body to barefeet. At her feet there is a mess of cloths.

8. Zoom out to see full body.

9. Zoom out to see a mess of cloths behind.

10. (Another image of her)A messed up her rampages through the cloths and hides in a long clothe.

11. Clothes are thrown at her. She is being blamed and chased out of the house.

12. Full body, clear background. She is putting on makeup. *can see her (no.2) rampaging through the cloths in the back.

13. Close up on Ah juan's eyes. She puts on mascara.

14. She uses a tissue.

15. Drops it on the floor on the left.

16. Pan to a lot of crumpled tissue and tissue boxes on the floor.

17. She is tearing. Wiping her tears away, ruining her makeup.

18. She is holding hand (wears a wedding band) with a man giggling. The man rests his hand over her tummy and calls her mummy.

19. Phone on the floor. Tissues being throw in. News of the death of her husband.

20. Full body. Clear background. Zoomed out to see she puts on makeup. *She (no.2) is rampaging through the cloths, she (no.3) is tearing -- can be seen in the back.

21. Close up on her lips. She puts on lipstick.

22. A beer bottle rolls to the right and knocks into a lot of other beer bottles. Zoom out to see her drinking, laughing and crying.

23. Body of a guy and a girl flirting. Guy pushing beer to girl.

24. beer bottle breaks

25. wide shot of room in a mess. she finishes makeup. *She (no.2) is rampaging through the cloths. She (no.3) is tearing. She (no.4)drinking. -- can be seen in the back.

26. A pair of heels sits by the door.

27. She puts on a necklace with the wedding band as a pendant.

28. She writes a note for her daughter, zhen.

29. See scene (room in a mess) through the window. She walks to the door.

30. Feet wear heels. And leaves.

31. Returns back to look like the room the little girl left.

END

This is essentially what i'm going to film. the film name is "she" (她）。
it is about the objectification of the women of the night. that they go through the same love and desperation that each one of us goes through. at the same time this is an experimental film where i seek to move away from the usual narrative structure. in this film the story of a lady is told through the revealing of a room. a close analogy would be the room is the book and as we move through it, we read it. then as we leave the book is closed.

i dont think its a worthless try. but seriously.. ihatemyfilm. scott forbides that sentence, he'll fail me if he see that sentence..

I'm not giving up yet.

2006-09-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

i'm not such a great publicity.
i dont really write good scripts.
i'm not much of a director.
i've missed so many bowling trainings.
i quitted being a part of the SU exco.
i've offended (ignored) so many people this year.
i dont seem to see any of my usedtobeclose friends anymore,
and they dont seem to care i'm not there.
i dont even seem to see any of those newly made (and lost) friends.
i'm becoming this 'pregnant' looking pig.
i'm not a good daughter.
nor a good girlfriend.

...

(tell me) i'm not giving up yet.

TIME TO WORK!

2006-09-09T11:10:00.000+08:00

saturday late morning.. brightly lit room, no glaring light and a nice breeze.

TIME TO WORK!
set designs!
film scripts!
camera actions!
sound composing!
location filming!
shot composing!

:) sort of loving the slacking and the buzz in my life :)

support singapore films by watching singapore dreaming at a cinema k? :)
and my friends. as much as i need you. if you need me in anyway, just drop me a mail sms tag anything :)

lotsa smiles :) for you smile.

fdtfy kkzlyfn..

2006-09-05T11:01:00.000+08:00

got it from a business email.. from fdtfy kkzlyfn.. whoever that is.

She's a nut. Say it with flowers. Spring rain, Fall gold. Stuck in a rut. Up a tree. Stone cold sober. Your all washed up. The way to a man's heart is through his stomach. Tossed around like a hot potato. When it rains it pours. When pigs fly. She's a nut. This is for the birds. Stir up an ant's nest. Shall I compare thee to a summer's day. You say potayto, I say potahto. She's a nut. Some like carrots others like cabbage.
Weed it out. Which came first, the chicken or the egg. What's done is done. Waking up with the chickens. Top of the morning. Timing is everything. Still water runs dirty and deep. Rough as a cob. Thick as a brick. Play a harp before a cow. We hung them out to dry. Sow dry and set wet. There may be snow on the roof, but there's fire in the belly. Plain as water. Your name is mud.

Timing is everything. Tastes like chicken. Watch and wait. Top of the morning. Run to seed. Timber! What goes up must come down. Weed out. Take time to smell the roses. A thing of beauty is a joy forever. There's no time like the present. A stepping stone to. Tools of the trade. Through the grapevine. You can't teach an old dog new tricks. The sun will shine into our yard to. Which came first, the chicken or the egg. Spaceship earth. Weed it out. Where man is not nature is barren.
Through the grapevine. Stand your ground. Water it down. The scum of the earth. Tastes like chicken. Pull it up by the roots. A thing of beauty is a joy forever. Some like carrots others like cabbage. So hungry I could eat a horse. They're like two peas in a pod. A rose is a rose is a rose. Play a harp before a cow. To live from hand to mouth. Slow as a snail. Rise and shine. Survival of the fittest. Say it with flowers. We'll hand you out to dry.

NOTICE!

2006-09-05T10:41:00.000+08:00

serious error note everyone!!

the filming dates are 7, 8, 14, 15 of OCTOBER. i repeat OCTOBER!!
how blur i was..

so pls! HELP ME!! no experience needed.. i just need manpower. and trust me. its going to be fun. we'll be heading to a cool place in town.. an abandon police station at outrum.. do help!
i apreciate any help in any sense so drop me a tag, sms, msn.. all works!

love yall!

hey gang! gosh... i'm talking like totally awesome.. like my US profs. sweeet.

HELP! and THANKS!

2006-09-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

supposedly.. i wanted to do some scenography work (set design) during this hour break for lunch before my scenography class starts.. but hell. i've had enough of sketchup.

this is what i've came up with last night. think its good enough.. though its not great or anything.. it has a little standard at least.. but since i said "supposedly".. i'm moving away from scenography. i can get more of that later..

in any case, i'm looking for production crew helpers, actors, script critics, music composers for my short film production. HELP!!! COME ON! now's the time to call me, sms me, tag me.. bug me. cos i'll be paying for all the food that you'll have on the days of filming and i'll host a party after the film is produced. promise.

really really need your help. DESPERATE. cos i have only 4 weeks till filming on the 7, 8, 14, 15 of october. and i'll be meeting all those who would and should have their say in the script meet for dinner most probably this week. i have to finish the script in like less than 10 days!!

so everyone.. please!! i'm begging here! read my blog and BUG ME!!
Thanks so much! you'll get a great christmas present for helping me, cos santa saw you doing a great deed. :)

HELP! and THANKS!

3 Scene exposition of SQ

2006-09-04T13:30:00.000+08:00

FIL 260 Narrative Writing
The first 3 scenes.
-Introduce a character, setting, a goal and what's at stake.
Done by: Fu Shiqi

fade in

a table full of notes, textbooks and pens scattered around. An examination timetable is pinned on the wall in front of the table. calendar shows that there is an examination today at 930am.

alarm clock rings. SHE reaches out to snooze the alarm, yawns and rolls back into the blanket and sleeps.

alarm clock shows its 930am.

seriously. this came straight to my mind right after i stoned in front of my computer doing late nights and waking up in the nick of time for class the nxt day. so killing yourself actually helps.

great. gotten myself a short 3 scenes that works. takes only 10secs for you establish who she is and what shit she's gonna get into.

6am

2006-09-04T06:13:00.000+08:00

is it 6 or 6? i mean..

coffee made me awake till 6am?!!!! class starts at 9.. going to bed now.

coffee makes you shiver awake..

And so they wallow in alcohol.

2006-09-04T02:36:00.000+08:00

and so they wallow in alcohol.

i'm wallowing in ice coffee at 2 am in the morning.. 3 cups full. and i'm going to 'sleep' when i get over it. did 1 out of 10 assignments. and i wallow in ice coffee and dont want to do work.

somebody shoot me. just kill me. seriously. kill me.
i'll provide the fork. mayb the knife. i have a penknife.

The Bored Post

2006-09-01T12:05:00.000+08:00

i'm in school now..
(such a boring start.. tells you how bored i am at the current moment.)

an hour till my class starts.. just hoping that it won't be boring as usual.. i'm talking boring stuff.. this is the boring post.. which is done when i'm bored.. to bore you to death.. and free myself from this boredom.. are you bored yet? i'm still bored.. and the rhythming sound of the keyboard when i type sounded less boring just now.. but now its just getting so constant that it's becoming boring.. and i'm using a boring font.. a very clear type that's emotionless making it feel more boring..

and my dear sitting beside me is becoming bored.. as he sits staring at me typing boring stuff.. for the bored post.. which is done to make you understand how bored i am.. and make you feel the boredom that i'm going through.. and i know that i'm not going to stop this boring thing.. till i feel that it's getting boring.. and you are going to feel bored soon.. and i also know that..

STOP IT!!!

LOL. actually i do have work to do just that i dont feel like and cant do it that the current moment.. cos i dont have my laptop and the school computers that have the programme are not available..

gosh. i still can feel that monotone voice in my head.. i'm like dragging every word that i'm saying.. even though i'm actually looking forward to classes 'cause they are really fun now.. i have a film production class, an editting class, scenography class (designing stage.. sets..) and forensic science..
and this semester..
no more WAHings.. (if you've forgotten.. Western Art History -ing)
its..
AAHing.. (asian art hist.. so scream.. AAH!)

loving school. even though i feel bored at this current moment and am boring myself by typing a boring post, making my dear feel as bored as me.. and decided to run away before the real boredom gets to him.. and makes him bored like me going on ranting like a lunatic..

this is a boring post, ain't it?

So this is me?

2006-08-31T02:47:00.000+08:00

http://www.perex.com/ says this is me..

You are fun, spontaneous, clever and interesting. People like to be around you because of your easygoing nature.

You like to wake up each morning without a plan and see where the day takes you, hopefully on some safe but relatively exciting adventure.

You excel in composition. You know what looks good together, what sounds good together, and what smells or tastes go together. This comes from a higher than normal tuned in attention to slight variations in color, texture, tone, and flavor.

You like to see everyone living harmoniously and can get irritated by whoever is currently rocking the boat and causing problems.

When faced with a problem you are most likely to solve it in the most obvious way, not implementing cumbersome standard methods or finding what is “socially acceptable” first.

Most people you interact with do not really know you. This is partially because of your reserved nature (you don’t tell them much), partially because most other types are less reserved (they spend too much time talking and not enough asking about you), and partially because you accept people the way they are (you don’t feel much of a need to correct and evaluate others, so people don’t realize how you think differently).

In fact, you have more interest in expressing yourself physically, through song, dance, or actions, than verbally, and you may give up too quickly when someone asks for a verbal explanation of your thoughts.

You prefer hands-on practical work. You may tolerate other types of work, but you’re never happier than when you’re building, fixing or creating something you can see, touch, taste or hear. You prefer work which is not fixed to a procedure, but which may, at any time, take an entirely new direction if the impulse hits you.

As a parent or leader you are non-directive, preferring to see what happens on its own rather than lay down strict procedures and give orders. To you it is understood that any procedures developed by necessity today disappear tomorrow unless they are still absolutely required.

If you do become difficult or cranky it is usually a result of someone else trying to impose some rule or boundary upon you personally, although your discomfort is almost always short lived and relatively painless for all involved.

I Need.. WLPF

2006-08-31T02:29:00.000+08:00

i need to get a new watch.
and i just got a new pair of specs cos i lost the other..

need a new alarm clock too..
new shoes..
new cartridges..
new books..
new shows..
new bag (maybe)..
new ideas..
and more ideas.. and ideas..

and talent. for film class.

and WLPF!
suhui! wanhui! issac! a film must go on! and this time it includes my grades. lol. need your help!

God Must Have Spent A Little More Time On You

2006-08-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

Can this be true?
Tell me can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?

Never thought that love could feel like this
And you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel
It's a miracle

Your love is like a river,
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true,
God must have spent a little more time on you

In all of creations all things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold when you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Makes me purified

Your love is like a river,
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that its true,
God must have spent a little more time on you

Never thought that love could feel like this
And you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me?
There's an angel
It's a miracle

Your love is like a river,
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that its true,
God must have spent a little more time on you
God must have spent a little more time...
On you

090806

2006-08-17T02:28:00.000+08:00

writer's block is bullshit. you just have to start writing. quoted from my prof lilian. so here i am trying to start a post before i start a long blog break again.

everyones national day was about singapore, and everyone knows i'm patriotic to this little dot no matter how much i complain about it, but i'm not here to talk about that. i've yet to update most people about, i've been on a mini roller coaster ride. on the coaster we always expect those turns, ups and downs, but when it comes there would still be that shock that second of unexpected force. i love coaster rides. but i'm really not sure whether i'm in favor of this one that my heart took.

0115hr 090806,
i did what i couldnt believe i would do. i syncronised my life with that "angel". i understood that one's character can overflow from within. i, for the first time, felt like i could trust. felt what it was like to be protected, cherished in this special way.

then i lost another who cherished and i cherished in hours time. first the shock then the realisation then the grief. but i know she belongs with the lord now. one's physical is just a shell, its the spirit that matters. and she has always and will always live as she stays in my heart. and if i could tell her one thing now,"ah ma we'll all be smiling and fine."

dont congrats me or tell me you are sorry about it, would rather you come with a plain sincere smile. or lets just get the energy up and live life to the fullest (even in the stomach sense.. lol)!

It takes two hands to clap,
we won’t walk alone…
Let’s walk on 2gether…
一直到永久...

did you buy 4D? 0115? haha..

thanks for being there. everyone.

a stop to look around

2006-08-08T09:18:00.000+08:00

Gosh. today is the day! scream YES! i'm still a free bird~ first week of term feels weird. no need to jump out of bed to rush assignments. how many mornings can i wake up to realise that i have nothing planned to be done after washing up? going to enjoy myself this morning.. suddenly feel like i should do something productive instead of slack.. but i have nothing to do!

feel relieved and rested. finally after so much craziness.

Morning sun

2006-08-02T08:43:00.000+08:00

i've forgotten about it.

i love the morning sun.
its those days when you stop busying. stop slacking. wake up early in the morning to find the sun in your face. and that urge to pull open the curtains to let all that sunlight flood into your room. there's this different quality in the atmosphere -- a kind of light, like enlightenment; a kind of warmth like the love of the lord.

thank you lord. i cherish you.

and you.. too.

still the girl that smiles all the time,

still the girl that dreams to bring laughter to each mouth,

still the girl who loves to dream,

still the girl who aspires to make a difference in someway,

still looking for the meaning and purpose of existance,

still ambitious.

don't let me go down the wrong road.

don't let me chase those nothings.

don't let me become heartless.

don't let me stray..

love you lord.

as always.

Instrumental

2006-07-31T01:38:00.000+08:00

i wanna pick up piano and gu zhen and sax again. i miss being able to compose freely.
do introduce me a teacher if you have one. listening to xiew's piano playing now. nostalgia.

for the past 2 weeks

2006-07-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

anyone still there?

*silence*

no wonder. i mean its been a month since i blogged. finally finished with 2 freshmen orientation camps but its not the end to my duties. coming up next is union dinner and dance and adm garage sale. but anyway i like busying away for an ending. (cos i can dream about the sleep that i'm entitled to after all those late nights. lol) so hall peeps. dont dream of seeing me at hall camp. i'm dead and entitled to that one week of oversleeping after 2 camps. lol.

anyway i really have to thank the adm camp, i really got to know a bunch of superb friends from the camp. from being so unattached to the school, even at times i feel as if i dont belong there, to feeling bonded and super proud of being a student there (even if i'm one of the worse students.). i really love my dear admers.

uoc didnt end up as a disappointment as i expected, k grp rocks on. i mean.. slacks on! haha.. the on "self-high" group. even if we lose everything we can still irritate all the bus drivers and amuse tourists singing song in public, mostly national songs. i mean national day is coming up isnt it? lol. i have to thank the freshies. if it wasnt for them, i would have hated the camp. so thank you so much kaja! *kaja! are you ready??* we really are not bad! haha!

took a short walk in school last night, cos ms sotong here was reminded she forgotten her keys to her room when she was already in jurong yesterday. had to go to the campus security to get keys to my room. (thanks danny) i love the school at night. no noisy rushing students. no announcements. no heat from the sun. no rubbish after the aunties' cleaning. lit by lights. wind in your face. no one to say you are crazy if you hop your way around alone and take deep breaths to take in the moment.

then this morning i went to the market with my mum. been long since i've done that. i love the market in the morning, especially wednesday, saturday and sunday mornings when the market would be flooded with little "stores" that aunties and uncles come to set up around the market and along the shelter. today was the best, cos there was a new store that sells cds and was blasting cute energetic music that filled the air. i felt like i was in some movie scene setting. i wanted to let my hair down, dance and sing! and hug that kid who came running along smiling at me. i thought, this is singapore's backstage.how many tourist would get to see this? the typical aunties at lelong sales, uncles waiting for them with a coffee at the coffeeshop, kids running around, singlish thrown around like there was no government around saying "dont use singlish!". how can i leave singapore? how could i ever have thought it?

mayb i shd have left it at the fairy tale ending..

jan blogs again

2006-07-09T20:47:00.001+08:00

I am Hoo Shi Jan. I am eight plus. My birthday is not over yet. I am in the best class of P3 you know. Oh, I think you do not know as I do not know you also. Funny heh, I got lousy marks in P3 but I got good marks in P2, do you know? I bet you do not know because I do not know you. I hate to be the shortest and youngest in my family because I always get bullied in my family. You will know if you are the youngest in the family. I hate one of my cousin because he sometimes help me and sometimes the other cousins. Although I hate my cousin, I love myself. I do not know who I am talking to but at least I know i am talking to someone now. I do not whether I am correct but it is also ok to talk to myself. I know I am blogging but I do not know who is reading my blogging, can you tell me why? Sometimes I also hate my brother because he always disturb me. And I tell you a secret that my brother always talk to himself in the room. Though I do not know what he is talking about but I know he has stage fright. I think he is training himself not to have stage fright, actually I also have stage fright but I went up to the stage before so I wouldn't be so frightened. Today I just watch PIRATES OF THE CAIRABIAN, it is a very facinating show, but there is something wrong with the characters, especially the main character, JACK SPARROW!

Rong

2006-07-02T15:23:00.000+08:00

Hello, I am Lim Li Rong. I am Shiqi's cousin. Do you know how old I am? I am not old-meaning, er, meaning,I'm not even 10! Shiqi is my only girl cousin, so I like her a lot. (Of course, I like her much,much more than the others!) Oh, I forgot that you may not know me,but it still is very fun talking to you. Well,it's nice to make friends. YIPEE!! oops.......Ahqi Jie Jie is sleeping. Well, hafta go,or else she's gonna see me! BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hoo Shi Jan

2006-07-01T18:46:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone I am Fu Shi Qi's cousin, do you know me?

If you do not know me you may ask Shi Qi!

You may be curious about my age yeh, and I tell you I am surely younger than you, do you know? I am Shi Qi’s cousin, of course I am younger than her. Do you know what is stress? my mother always give me that. Before I could even say a sentence she has already corrected my sentence, like just now but at least this time is not bad you know oh yeh! Now tell me your name NOW! I shall tell you my name, my name is Hoo Shi Jan, what about yours oh yeh? I must tell you how many friends I have. I have 1 super super super good friend and most of all I love my mother, my father, and my naughty older brother, who is always disturbing me everytime I am bored lying on the bed. I love my mother, my father, my brother. I went to Malaysia with my whole family what about you yeh?

I wish I am talking to someone or else I will be talking to myself???????

Sleeping away

2006-06-21T13:11:00.000+08:00

what am i doing with my life?

wake me up someone.

ima changi kyuuko imasu!

2006-06-03T07:37:00.000+08:00

can't believe that i'm setting off to japan in a few minutes time.
ima changi kyuuko imasu! i'm using changi airport's free internet access to type this.

nihon he ikimasho!
sayonara!

sun zi bing fa

2006-05-29T16:49:00.000+08:00

while busying away with all the work i need to submit before i fly~~ away to japan.. i've been sneaking peeks at a drama bout women.. love.. and life..

its like the sun zi bing fa of life. sort of sets me thinking what kind of tactics have i applied in my "battlefield". but all in all.. the best part of it all is that i always have this bunch of girlfriends to retreat back to whenever i lose a battle, escape from one, even when i'm tired of one.

so girls. thank you so much. especially hui! sorry that i've burdened you with all the planning for the 3 days japan extension.. always away and busy with exco.. adm.. meetings.. deadlines.. designs.. and thank you for tahan-ing my away from my phone and msn sydrome..

for once i'm going to be that truthful to type straight from my heart. after watchin the show, i really feel like i'm no longer that teenager statue that i want to hold on to.. though yes my age still has a "teen" in it.. but i can't run away from the fact that i have to start worrying about the things that only trouble adults and picking up responsibilities that affect many others.

when i walked into the washroom just and looked into the mirror at the me with my hair up and glasses on, in a set of cloths ready for another important meeting.. i felt.. old. not really as in old old.. but those responsibilities coming my way, those dreams that will forever lie asleep if i dont plan and start now, the way i'll just be a bug in the society if i still am so childish.

i seemed like only a day since the day i said there's still a long way to go till i start working.. seemed only a day since we sat around gossiping in uniform. yet now. working seems so normal, and working will become my life in a short few for years.. and topics of the future.. the world.. money.. responsibilities.. are what we discuss all day.

this time i dont have the energy of a youth to complain about growing up. this time i'm accepting it, maybe not welcoming it, but accepting. time to grow up. time to apply my sun zi bing fa to my life, instead of running around without a direction.

anyway.. talking about life battlefield.. i want to say another thing.

i'm back for grabs in the field of love. still not in the lelong section k? still at least a mid-range priced good! haha..

but this time.. i'm not looking for fun anymore. guess i'm tired of it.. i'll looking for security and reliability. just like that woman in the drama. a man who can appreciate her work, able to give her mature advices, strong enough to be her punchbag and her wall to lean on. but hey. i'm still holding on to my checklist! stop dreaming that i'll be that bit less practical and toodamnrational.

but then again. men. stand aside while i fill my life with my girls, work and fun that no man (i mean MALE) can bring me.

ladies. rule.

dusting

2006-05-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

ok.. i've finally decided not to run away from all this..

dust.

yes. believe me when i said i did walk in a few times typed a few words, a sentence.. cleared some cobwebs at the door.. i did. just that the rest of the mess i see after the door is too much work, so i slammed the door and left.

one thing for sure, i'm going to "green only.. green only". leaving this "concrete only" in less that 10 days. for more information, please visit wanhui's site. ahaha! i am truly a lazybum.

situation now: i'm sitting at the door reading.. the mess is still there.

すみません。

2006-05-09T21:01:00.000+08:00

きれい。。。きれい。。。きれい。。きれい
きれい！！！！！
すみません。。でも私。。とても私がきれいです。。

怖くで、かなしです。。

でも、泣きません。。
すみません。。ともだちたちもわかりませんか。

Notice to LPF

2006-05-08T19:31:00.000+08:00

i got this mail.. was wondering if you guys are interested. well i am. so i need your help!
do contact me if you are raising your hand up and saying "me!" too!

Dear Future Filmmaker / Animator,

The Singapore Disability Sports Council (SDSC) is holding its first student video and animation competition this year, in conjunction with an awareness campaign it will be launching in July.

This video and animation competition aims to spread the awareness of disability sports and build public support for local disabled athletes through the help of those who are passionate about creating messages which can bring about a change in people's lives.

we believe you can give us a voice and help us be heard.

Experiment with the vast matrix of disability sports and challenge yourselves to popularize a topic which is frequently neglected by the local media.

Being a charity organization, we can merely offer 20 of the most powerful messages to be screened on plasma screens outside Cathay cinemas in July.

We are also in talks with TV Mobile to showcase your works as part of the awareness campaign.

But, ONE work will surpass the others to be selected as the winning entry and if you or your team produced this work, pack your bags ready for a 3D/2N stay in Kuala Lumpur. We will provide accommodation, coach travel and even take care of your food! What's unique is that you will get to attend the FESPIC Games Opening Ceremony as well, and join us in cheering Singapore’s athletes on!

Equivalent to the Asian Games for the disabled, the FESPIC Games 2006 will see the largest contingent ever from Singapore. This will also be the last FESPIC Games ever.

Show your skills and play a part for Singapore. Complete the registration package and send it to us by 31 May 2006.

Do read the submission guidelines and terms of competition carefully.

We look forward to seeing your masterpiece!

Competition Details

1. Name of Competition : “Uniquely Sporting 2006” – A Student Video and Animation Competition
2. Who can take part : Students aged 17 and above can take part individually or in groups of not more than four persons.
3. Topics : Disability Sports or Disabled Athletes
4. Work length : Between 30 seconds to 15 minutes (Can be awareness spots, shorts or features)
5. Registration by : 31 May 2006
6. Submission of works by : 20 June 2006
7. Format of work : DV or data DVD/CD-ROM

Please fill in the registration package and send it back to us via mail, email, fax or hand-delivery before 31 May 2006. The registration package is also available for download on our website: www.sdsc.org.sg.

Should there be any other queries about this competition, please feel free to contact uniquely_sporting@sdsc.org.sg.

9th of march

2006-05-04T21:25:00.000+08:00

i'm totally in love with this song. can't get it out of my head.

3 Gatsu 9 Ka

Remioromen

Nagareru kisetsu no mannaka de
Futo hi no nagasa wo kanjimasu
Sewashiku sugiru hibi no naka ni
Watashi to anata de yume wo egaku

Sangatsu no kaze ni omoi wo nosete
Sakura no tsubomi wa haru e to tsuzukimasu

Afure dasu hikari no tsubu ga
Sukoshi zutsu asa wo atatamemasu
Ookina akubi wo shita ato ni
Sukoshi tereteru anata no yoko de

Arata na sekai no iriguchi ni tachi
Kizuita koto wa hitori ja nai tte koto

Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga
Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de
Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou
Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai

Sunabokori hakobu tsumujikaze
Sentakumono ni karamarimasu ga
Hirumae no sora no shiroi tsuki wa
Nan da ka kirei de mitoremashita

Umaku wa ikanu koto mo aru keredo
Ten wo aogeba sore sae chiisakute

Aoi sora wa rin to sunde
Hitsujigumo wa shizuka ni yureru
Hana saku wo matsu yorokobi wo
Wakachiaeru no de areba sore wa shiawase

Kono saki mo tonari de sotto hohoende

Hitomi wo tojireba anata ga
Mabuta no ura ni iru koto de
Dore hodo tsuyoku nareta deshou
Anata ni totte watashi mo sou de aritai

and the translation:

March 9th

In the middle of this drifting season
I suddenly feel the length of the days
In the midst of these quickly-passing days
You and I dream away

With my feelings on the March wind
The cherry blossom buds continue on into spring

The overflowing drops of light
One by one warm the morning
Beside you, I'm a little embarrassed
After a huge yawn

I'm standing at the door to a new world
What I've realized is that I'm not alone

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you

The dusty whirlwind
Tangled up the laundry, but
The white moon in the morning sky
Was so beautiful, I couldn't look away

There are things that don't go the way I planned
But if I look up to the sky, even they seem small

The blue sky is cold and clear
The fluffy clouds float by quietly
If I can share with you the joy
Of waiting for the flowers to bloom, I'll be happy

From now on, I want you to be quietly smiling beside me

If I close my eyes
You're behind my eyelids
How strong has that made me?
I hope I'm the same for you

FYI

2006-05-03T14:21:00.000+08:00

I'm now officially back in the "fiveX" club.

and don't worry k? i'm really fine. trust wanhui's post on october babies for me.. "recovers easily".

i believe you might be reading this. friends. i still care.
oh and the mangoes are still in jo's room, dont forget to have some! thank you for everything.. and sorry about everything else.. live your life well k?

i'm off to feeding fane and kuniko's mail..

Lazy Bum blogs

2006-04-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

はい　はい　はい　はい！　ワンフイさん。
(hai hai hai hai! wa--n-hu-i-sa-n)
here's the lazy bum blogging finaaaaalllyy...
ハア！ハア！　(reads ha-a! ha-a!)
and i'll insert some japanese vocab here and there for you to pick up!

FINALLY on the last day of last week.. started my first (hajime) driving lesson. all i can say is.. i'm going to become one of those "kae-u" women drivers.. can't control the oil properly.. keep forgetting about the clutch.. keep forgetting to look into the rearview mirror.. gosh. わたし　くるま　お　うんてんする　わるいですよ！　（wa-ta-shi ku-ru-ma o u-n-te-n-su-ru wa-ru-i-de-su-yo!) {translate: i car drive bad, yo!}

i've been baking.. and baking.. (lots of huat kueh). Been trying out funny coconnations.. haha.. pandan.. orange.. vanilla.. almond.. i have these 4 flavors.. and MIXED ones.. haha.. they look good and from what i hear from my aunt. this 4th batch that i baked today is great! unique yet acceptable, sweet and nice to smell, good texture. YAY! :) i'm in love with baking.. and blueberry muffins golden brown outside and purplish inside! and chocolate chip cookies.. and i'm thinking of making fruit buns next.. haha..

i'm sorry i didnt bring those baked goods and cusines (ryori) back to hall as i promised those still having exams.. blame my bottomless-stomach cousins! once i finally finish baking a batch of 20.. i'm usually left with only 10. 'cos they will ask "ah qi jie jie! i take one, okie?"(ahqi-neesan, hitotsu totde iidesuka?) how can i say no (iie)? then my aunts. and uncles. and mum and dad.. and granny and grandad.. haha.. in a swoosh. one each. and 16 gone. then by the nxt morning.. the rest settles in their stomach. i can't believe they havent gotten sick of it yet. haha.. and my cousin are waking me up everyday (maenichi) to bake. they love to stir and add things to the dough.. smell it.. stare at the oven.. hear the "ting!" of the oven..
baking is so funny when i do it with my cousins. i guess i miss being aneesan (elder sister), being their refuge from their parents. tonight (konban) 2 of my cousin will be sleeping over in my room. :) they are so much a part of my life i think thats why hostel will never feel like home without them and the noise they bring.

been reading too! love reading to sleep and reading on the car, the train, in the toliet, before training.. and i love the book.. not another chic lit i'm glad to say.. it's "the unbearable lightness of being".. indepth of living.
makes me want to ask everyone is happy light or heavy? burdens are heavy, right? so are we truly happy when we feel light and freed from burdens?
gosh.. i could go on and on and on.. a really clever book that makes you think about your life.. makes you cherish it.

talk bout cherishing life.. i'm still in the mids of watching ichi reita no namida... 1 litre of tears. cried 500l.. haha.. if i were a flower, now i would be a bud. i will cherish the days of my youth.. extracted from it. HUI! and did you know that i nearly bought the japanese novel ichi reita no namida?! only till just did i realise that its the same story.. makes me want to buy the book more.. even if it'll take me a dictionary and one month to finish it! no translated version! in japanese! haha.. from kino.. so ahhh... if you want to get me to help you in something.. haha.. you know how to thank me! ;p

kk.. i need to bathe now!! mums nagging.. haha..

Crazy _____(fill in the verb)

2006-04-23T15:47:00.000+08:00

crazy reading books..
but i'm forced to bed before 1am by my dad.

crazy baking cakes, cookies and cooking..
but its getting way too expensive though my cousins are (fortunately) more than willing guinea pigs..

crazy starting bowling..
i'm glad that this passion stays..

crazy watching drama..
but i'm ARGH!! stuck with a cliff-hanging episode!!

and yea.. crazy eating. but that's called FULFILLING ENJOYMENT. LOL..

gonna start alot of stuff that i've pushed back or "ran away" from..

start my driving practical lessons.. start watching FILMS not movies and dramas.. start researching for hui's and my "project dream".. start filming for wLPF.. start moving my faith.. start looking for a job..

start living my life..

starry night, hokkaido & LPF notice

2006-04-19T19:18:00.000+08:00

okay okay.. i should be posting something up.

well recap.
the day before the doomsday -- the WAH (western art history) exam..

i was going crazy reading about van gogh. just type "van gogh" in to yahoo search and tada! i didnt miss one link. i read them all.. except for those ebay sort of link.
well anyway.. though i was cursing van gogh the way through cos i really hated writing essays..worse so if i had to research before i can even squeeze a hundreds words out of the painting..
but the more i read about him, themore i wanted to read.. a sweet sensitive guy, in his heart and with his brush.. with such intelligence with philosophy.. close to his siblings and cherished what nature gave and he's interest in the bible.. what else was he but a man to fall in love with?!
heck with those "ancient people" who deemed his intelligence as crazy and those who deemed his sensitivity as weakness.. just look at his paintings! one that really intrigued me..

Starry Night (note. this is a link to the picture.)

it was a painting of his internal turmoil when he was in the aylsum. and in his peaceful beautiful blue night-scape, he brought out chaos, terror and utter despair.. who else could put all that mess of feelings into one single painting? no one i could think of.
it was amazing, the feeling i got from the painting. it was like an actual experience. you know, like very-humane.. one never only feels sadness and sadness alone. there's always this paradox in the way we feel. (like when parents look at their kids, they feel irritated by their mischief yet happy cos they are the reason of their lives.) i guess i can never describe that feeling with my limited english.. you've just got to breathe that painting in yourself.

ok.. so nxt.
hokkaido homestay.
did i mention about it before? in 6 weeks time. i'll be off and flying to sapporo, hokkaido, japan to be hosted by a lovely senior couple, shin-san and kuniko-san! and they've just replied my mail that was in horrible japanese. haha.. there. a chance to put my japanese to use and to practice. haha.. when, ahwan is in this too. she's hosted by another family. we'll be going on our own tour for 3 days after the homestay. really looking forward to it.

oh and. this is utterly IMPT!
suhui! when are your exams ending? because the MV production is due to start as-soon-as-exams-are-over! hui's gotten herself a handy dandy video camera! and thats gonna be our baby for the production! :) so all production members. stand-by for this time. we really should get started! :)

okie.. i'm gonna get back to my quiz-doing obsession and sims2 obsession and as soon as i get my ass down to borders again.. my reading obsession.. so i wont be on that eating-obsession.. haha..

if i'm not cutting that waistline.. i better not increase it.

LOL...

really muddy mud cake..

2006-04-17T13:58:00.000+08:00

my mudcake is in the oven baking.. and its the first time i'm doing it.. without any help from my dear master hui.. and i'm really not sure what it'll become.

lets just see how things go... i dont wanna upset the gang.. haha..

recipe's from women's weekly..

Quiz Break

2006-04-12T23:44:00.000+08:00

Your Perfume is Glow

Fresh, sexy, and clean.

You're real, intimate, and exciting.

Your lush sensuality appeals to men...

And you're as sexy as Jennifer Lopez.

Power scents: Orange flower, grapefruit, and citrus.

What Perfume Are You?

You're looking for a Best Friend
There are many different ways to look at relationships, but for you, finding a best friend, the one person you share everything with, is the most important. Some people focus more on the romantic image of a soul mate to last the span of time, but you probably prefer the reality of making the most of every moment of every day. And who better to live those moments with than someone who's true blue through and through?The ideal match for you is probably someone who can anticipate the next word out of your mouth and who laughs at the punch line before you even tell it. Chances are it's important to you that they'd expand your circle of friends, introduce you to new places, faces, and experiences, too. Whether this relationship is here for the short- or the long- term, you're a take-it-as-it-comes kind of person, with few expectations or fairytales to live up to. You'd take your constant companion and trusted secret-keeper over a fairy princess or Prince Charming, any day. Whether you realize it or not, there's someone out there who feels the same way about you. Like you, that someone is looking for the one person to be their best friend — both in the bedroom and out.

What Are You Looking for in a Relationship?

Brought to you by Tickle

blogthings.com again

2006-04-07T05:57:00.000+08:00

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have a few true loves.

You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt.

You expect a lot from your lover - you want the full package. You tend to be very picky.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

did this while i was ransacking my brain on how to present my work.. yes. minisize me.

Joan's ambitious SQ

2006-04-04T10:41:00.000+08:00

Joan's ambitious SQ..
(thats what she calls me)
has just disappointed her. so she decided to show her dissapointment through my grades.

Joan's my foundation drawing prof. today's grading day and she reviewed my "works", which i agree that it wasnt the best in the world, but i didnt expect her to say she expected somemore from me. i mean. i am serious.. quite bad. now i'm just alright, isnt that an improvement?

learnt my lesson. dont let anyone do have any expectations of you, then they'll be content with your work.

anyway i got a B- for fdn drawing.. i have a bad feeling for the rest of the fdn classes. gosh. i better start praying.. really hoping for a 3.5 GPA this time round..

lord please.. bless me.

blueberry coffeecake

2006-03-28T02:06:00.000+08:00

well i baked a cake on sunday in a rush. forgot to take a picture of it till the last piece.. haha..

not really happy with this.. gonna try again friday.. plus a surprise cake. and maybe pizza too. and some mango-meat.

evolving into hui soon.. haha..

blogthing.com 2

2006-03-28T01:58:00.000+08:00

more blogthings.

You Are Italian Food

Comforting yet overwhelming.
People love you, but sometimes you're just too much.

What Kind of Food Are You?

Your Values Profile

Loyalty:

You value loyalty a fair amount.
You're loyal to your friends... to a point.
But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.
Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.

Honesty:

You don't really value honesty.
You do value getting your way, no matter what.
And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.
A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)

Generosity:

You value generosity highly.
So much so that you often put your own needs last.
There's nothing wrong with having a caring heart...
But you may want to rethink your "open wallet" policy.

Humility:

You value humility a fair amount.
You tend to be an easy going, humble person.
But occasionally your ego takes over.
You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.

Tolerance:

You value tolerance highly.
Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...
You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.
You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

The Five Factor Values Test

blogthings.com

2006-03-23T14:36:00.001+08:00

okay.. so i was bored..

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.
At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

How You Are In Love

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to give more than take in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How re You In Love?

You Are a Frappacino

At your best, you are: fun loving, sweet, and modern
At your worst, you are: childish and over indulgent
You drink coffee when: you're craving something sweet
Your caffeine addiction level: low

got to go now.. escaping japanese class..

Obviously.

2006-03-12T20:13:00.000+08:00

obviously i'm complaining AGAIN.

obviously reading my blog only will not let you know how i feel. or if something big emotional change has happened in my little life.

obviously i'm nvr really pissed here.
i just talk like that, mind u. i always sound like that.

and obviously. you guys shd see this.

http://pages.intnet.mu/mfoondun/pages/10ways.html

obviously if you dont know.
you are quite blind.

some just HAVE to understand the meaning of respecting EVERYONE around and the importance of a promise.

i'm not having PMS. mind u.

cherish

2006-03-11T02:36:00.001+08:00

reblogging what kat reblogged..
find it sweet too.. guys.. cherish your girls. and girls. same there too.

Actually Ren De posted this on his blog for a long time, but each time I read it, the sweeter it gets, and the more real it seems.

Guys, this is very true. Treasure your girl, cuz she might just turn away and never look back.

………………………………………………………….

Guys, realize that the girl holding onto u is PERFECT in their own special way.

The way she laughs..

The way she sleeps..

The way she loves you..

The way she tries to please you...

Always remember that.

She can always walk away and up,

getting someone else who can love her more.

For all you know,

there is someone out there wooing her already,

but she is rejecting a maybe perfect love for her..

There might also be someone out there..

who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now,

fulfill her every need and love her as much as she loves you.

Understand that.

Girls have a huge guilty conscience....

imagine this, guys.

When you are holding her today...

and then you cheat on her by hugging and kissing another gal.

and then you run back to her...

but you see love in her eyes...

What do you think?

Do you feel the hurt?

Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because

you are good looking,

have money,

buy her things,

make her parents happy,

or that you have a car.S

he loves you for who you are.

Your every touch,

every word you say,

everything you do.

Guys. cherish and appreciate your girl.

Don't break her fragile heart.

She is the only one who can love you that way.

You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have.

For everything she has done for you, the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.

………………………………………………………………

Unexplained Anger

2006-03-11T00:38:00.000+08:00

ARGH!

AHHHH!!
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88888888. and my no.8 button decided to drop out!

PEK-CEK!

i wanna scream FUCK!
and the reason behind it? ??
i HAVE NO IDEA!!!!
even more

PEKCEK!

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

thumb murder 2

2006-03-09T01:12:00.001+08:00

thought i'll get the stitches off today..

and yes.. thanks hui and charles and tingting who offered to go to the medical center with me.. and sorry charles! i had no idea you waited for me.. haha.. (all due to me not picking up my calls once again..)

but nope. the stitches are still there.. if i'm lucky i'll get it out this friday..
and can i tell you? i cant bend my thumb! i tried just now when i removed the bandage. yes. i can remove it. its just in a normal plaster now.

but i'm damn tired.. oh and i koped andy's cam.. took pics of look of whats under my plaster..
actually i'm quite amazed by it.. its healing well.

anyway.. cos i'm too tired to blog.. but i have something i really wanna say.. but dont dare to say.. i'll just say listen to this song..

And Thats Why I Love You
by Johannes Kotschy

You found my heart
you saw right through
you changed my life
and that's why I love you

I used to live
in a world that no one knew
you brought me home
and that's why I love you
Tell me how did you know
how could you see
you were the one for me
with everything gone
I was just holding on
when you pulled me through
and that's why I love you

I live for you
with every breath I breathe
that's all I need
for as long as you're with me

Tell me how did you know
how could you see
you were the one for me
with everything gone
I was just holding on
when you pulled me through
and that's why I love you

don't mean to be so sentimental
so emotional
but you're the dream I never dared to dream
oh, I'm holding on so strong
yeah, yeah, yeah

Tell me how did you know
how could you see
you were the one for me
with everything gone
I was just holding on
when you came along
tell me, how did you know
how could you se
you were the one for me
with everything gone

I was just holding on
when you pulled me through
And that's why I love you

You found my heart
you saw right through
you brought me home

And that's why I love you

you've reserved a place in my heart.. no matter what.. remember that.

thumb

2006-03-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

thumb murder

2006-03-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

yees yes yes.. the smile's on my face..

but then again.

cut my thumb today.. got stitches.. been long since i got into some bad accident.. argh. cant run away from my middle name, clumsy. and can i thank the nurses and doctor? they are soooooo nice! :) really deserve the praise. and i must thank the nurse who gave me a ferrero rochor (how do you spell it?)! :)

but functioning without a thumb is horrid. so pardon typing errors and stuff.. haha..

oh yah! i have ah laus cam with me!! haha.. so yes.. this is my thumb.

but no worries guys :) i'm still well and functioning.. and there's no infection so its safe and sound :). to say something crazy.. actually.. its quite nice to suddenly get a safe ncut (i mean when you can afford it..). now i really can run away from reality. hee.. if you understand what i mean.

back to my sculptures..

may i stop thinking of you

2006-02-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

can i cry? just this once?

may i stop thinking of you

those early breakfast in the empty cafe
those sweet dreams before bed
those hug me tights
those little moments

may i stop thinking of you
may tears stop bleeding
may that smile appear on your face again

lord let me know
if i should go
lord let me know
if i should let go

may i stop thinking of you
may tears stop bleeding
may that smile appear on our face again

my one and only, nvr before, nvr again sad post.

Attention! Wong-LPF!

2006-02-25T16:04:00.000+08:00

haha..

yes yes.. as to the hype on the tagboard, issac WONG from my hall has decided to join us in the production the never starts (maybe we shd name ourselves as never.start productions.. lol), and this is thae explanation why these time.. we decided to add his WONG to the LPF. haha.. Su.. cos.

1. this guy msged me in to middle of the night just to say he had to say that wongfu rocks!

2. this guy thinks phil's cute tooo!

3. he is formiably good at acting! (he's in our hall production)

4. and with his surname in.. we are nearly wongfu.. (WONGlauphayFU) haha!

yes. so in the meantime, Lau has suggested to have a script written for acting. yes. not the music video (that we wont start without you, phay!) , but a short video. so WLPF! lets get our brains moving!! haha.. once again, i'm on my roll to ask again..
WHO WANTS TO JOIN US?!
sorry for screaming.. but i am so hyped up now.. i cant wait till the script is out, so we can not waste any morning.. saturdays, sundays, nights and all.. and hopefully. we can get people who are talented(if you think you can.. you are!) and in composing music too, so we own the whole copyright. and someone whos' good at website.. so we can have this crazy online portal too!

well the term break is coming to an end. and finally.. i've decided to go fight the twin demons of procrastination and distraction, due to the stress from the consience and responsibility.. to finish my fdn and 2d assignments.. (still not strong enough for 3d.. i've got lots of excuses up my sleeve.. haha)

if you didnt know.. sims2 open for business for PC is coming out soon.. anyone who gets it gets my love for one day..
oh and i'll be heading to the jason mraz concert with Lau on March 17!! so if anyone gets me ALL his cds.. you'll have my love for a week!!

fighting the demons..

cheers to that saint..

2006-02-16T00:52:00.001+08:00

what was the actual story behind valentines day?
and who says valentine is just another commericalised event? its just that people are taking the opportunity they see to earn greens. but the day doesnt mean any lesser than before..

During the Roman Empire, under the rule of Emperor Claudius II there were many bloody and unpopular campaigns, and he was known to the Romans as “Claudius the Cruel.” He cancelled all marriages and engagements, so that men could join the army.

Saint Valentine, who was a priest, strongly believed in love and secretly performed marriages for couples. He was caught performing a marriage and was sent to prison. While in prison he befriended a guard’s daughter. On the day he died he gave his new friend a note thanking her for her friendship and loyalty. He signed it, “Love from your Valentine.”

At that time Feb. 14 was the holiday to honor Juno, goddess of women and marriage. St. Valentine was beaten to death, beheaded and suffered martyrdom Feb. 14, around the year 270.

and i want to say. thanks ping. for everything.
that night you brought life to a walking zombie.. gave it warmth.. :)

and should i thank my closest girls? for every help you gave to make it come true? lol..

and if you are wondering if i'm going to start on how my valentine was.. nope.
i've been reading blogs are talking to friends and listening to complains too.. before.. on.. and after valentine's day. haha.. and i wanna say. i used to be the same, its just that lord blessed me a gift this year..

to all my ex-club members.. and the one who complains about getting no flowers.. remember love comes in many different ways. :)

family.. friends.. even your lovely pets. that 14 feb is though just another day in life.. its a day to remind one of the love that surrounds you.. that we might have taken for granted. remember those times in secondary school? when everyone prepares presents, from decorated icecream sticks to lollypops to flower, for everyone else? when everyone single gathers around to bitch have fun.. and wish for prince charming to come but still enjoying the day, and life as single as such. and no one said we cant have fun without a partner. and no one said that we cant celebrate it with friends anymore at this age..

so i wanna take this chance to say.. none of you are lonely.. cos (wo)men aint everything in the world. take a look around you. and see this.

i love you.
and will always cherish you.
you are my gift from the lord..

sincerely with all the hugs in the world to YOU (who's reading this),
shiqi

if i hadnt have japanese mid term tmr and another assignment due.. i would have penned down some essay for each of you. :) but then again.. sometimes things dont need to be said out loud.

belated valentines. to all!

giving thanks to the lord for you..

running fingers

2006-02-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

hey hey! its blogging time!

okie.. sorry.. but my fingers just feel hype and i wanna type.. i LOVE the keyboard.. finally not using the noto-perso-com.. (notebook personal computer.. yes. thats how the japanese call it.)

and i'm listening to 2 honey and clover songs over and over.. thinking bout the hall sing and strum over and over.. and when are we gonna really make the mv over and over.. and when i'm going to do the work i planned to do today.

yesh.

okie.. maybe now.. but can i say something?

happy people day. haha..
sorry that this is a stupid post. but who cares? i dont. ;p

scale watching this cny

2006-01-30T23:47:00.000+08:00

the problem now with having to put in a title is.. i have no idea what title i want to put in.
before this.. i had a lot to say.. and type in. but suddenly. zitch. sorry guys. i forgot.

in any case, i still have to wish all of ya happy chinese new year! fane's (watashi no kawaii inue) screaming.. "it's my year! it's mine!! feed me and i'll walk the path with you and not against! woof!"lol.

oh and yes. let me tell you this interesting project that i'm starting on. eerhemm.. yesh.
was going to name in minisize me. then again.. it's cny and i see myself supersizin'.. and yesh. dont tell me i'm wrong this time. cos i'm bursting the scales. and pants. and popping buttons. and baggy cloths are my best friends.

so yesh. the project.

---=.watch-the-scale.=---

started it 2 wks ago.. so i have 2 pics of myself. and a few of the weighing scale. and yesh. after cny i'll be keeping to a diet and a routine. no running away this time.. or i'll serious fail this project assignment. so after 13 weeks, you should be able to see a new born SQ. you get what i mean.

in the mean time.. i'll be looking into a healthy diet plan so i'll be needing help from my dear nutriention minded friend.. ah lau.. and mind you. diet does not mean starvation or eating the amt of an ant..

diet; (n) A regulated selection of foods

wakarimasuka? in no way am i going to stop enjoying life. when lord bless you food, you eat. just dont kill yourself in the process. thats what i'm doing -- treasuring this life, a gift from the lord.

so.. minnasan.. enjoy all those new year goodies! but dont forget to drink lotsa water to cool the heat and go around and visit more people.. make your pocket a bit heavier in the mean time.. (i'm presuming everyone reading's unmarried.) i meant to potato-couch off this new year hols.. but then again.. i think the poison box is getting so boring i cant stand not surfing channels every 5 secs. then switch the tv off and add some noise to the environment hitting away on the keys of the piano.. then of the laptop. (like right now..)

so then. i'm gonna read up on diet plans!

title

2006-01-26T01:25:00.000+08:00

the importance of the title..

now you'll have something to help you decide whether you want to read the content of each post, cos i'll be putting up a title.. but that would also mean.. there will be less random crap that i mixed together and plop them here.

so this marks the end of this post. cos' that all i'll conjourn up for a post titled title.